I've had it.

That's it, I'm done, I've HAD it! I don't know what to do anymore. I'm drowning in this, it's stupid, I feel so so SO STUPID! STUPID!

For thoses who don't know, in my last journal, I mentioned my dad. He had a really, really rough spot for about two weeks recently, but he's doing MUCH better now. He's actually back at work again, cracking jokes, and he's fine...fine...

An now my mom.

I don't get this, what's wrong with my family now a days? She's sick. She came home from work early today.

My mom NEVER comes home from work early.

She's the kind of person who, in reality, only has to stay at work until, oh, 4:30, 5:30 at the most. And she comes home at 8 or 9. All the time. And she was home at 2.

She went to the doctor, and they said that she has Vertigo. I don't exactly know what that means, just that it means that she has more fluid in her right ear than her left, it's throwing her off balance and making her really sick, and she can only lie down and watch tv.

I mean, I'm probably WAY over exaggerating how serious it is. They haven't really said when it's supposed to go away, per say either though. And it's just...lots and lots of stress, I suppose. I mean, if these had been seperated by more than a few days, I'd be fine, just a little worried, helping out with chores, blah blah blah. But my aunt is actually here, her sister? And she's helping make dinner, cleaning up, my dad just came home, and I just...don't know what to feel.

I just...can't, i can't anymore. I'm going to go bang on my piano for a while. Maybe that will help get some of this awful feeling out of me. I'll keep anyone who cares posted.